The Peaches are wonderful, letting me use the
computer for hours to try to sort out flights and such, and offering whatever
other support they can. I leave Plockton at about noon and drive five hours
straight to Edinburgh, up beautiful and empty Glen Shiel, and then up achingly
poignant Glencoe, veiled by sun-tinged mist. I gobble the last of my cheese and
crackers as I pass over desolate Rannoch Moor, and am not hungry when I get to
Edinburgh, so I skip dinner. I want very badly to go to the Bow Bar, especially
since I don’t know if I’ll be back. I spend a quiet few hours there with pints
of Landlord and a couple of glasses of whisky. My flight is in the morning, at 10:20, and a long and sad
journey is ahead; but tonight, just for a little while, I can sit in a familiar
place and take some small comfort in a good dram.
4–8 October
2005
Interlude
The trip home went exceptionally smoothly. Were I inclined
to think that way, I’d say that God, or Fate, or Something, was watching over
me. I won’t elaborate here on the events of the following days. Let me say only
that what left us this past Sunday was but the last remnant of the man who was
my father; we have mourned all through this past summer as he declined, and now
feel mostly relief.
I will be returning to Scotland to meet Bobby and Ron,
whom I have been begging for years to join me on a trip. I am very glad not to
have to leave them on their own; I’m supposed to be the guide! But I will only
spend the eight days that they will be there before returning home again to help
my mother get things in order. I’ve missed my scheduled visits to Skye,
Knoydart, and Stirling, and will miss Bladnoch and the Mull of Galloway. There’s
always next year.
As my trip was approaching this year, I gave a lot of
thought to canceling, as my father was obviously failing. My mother said go, so
I said goodbye to Dad and went. Not long ago, Bobby told me of being in the same
situation some years back–he took a trip to Germany with some misgivings, as his
father was in poor health. In some town or other over there, he wandered into a
shop full of beer steins, and decided to buy one for himself. He chose one he
thought particularly handsome, and as the shopkeeper handed it to him for
inspection, he noticed an inscription in German on it. “What does this say?” Bobby
asked, and the shopkeeper translated:
Live life while the lamp glows,
and pluck the flower as it blooms.